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animalstalkinginallcaps:

DARREN, I’M NOT TRYING TO BE A BITCH OR ANYTHING BUT I THINK IT’S PRETTY CLEAR THAT AMY DOESN’T WANT TO TALK TO YOU ANYMORE AND THAT YOUR PRESENCE IS UPSETTING HER.
NOT THAT BEING PERCEIVED AS A BITCH IS IN ANY WAY BOTHERSOME TO ME BECAUSE I’M NOT LABORING UNDER THE DELUSION THAT YOUR OPINION OF MY OVERALL PERSONALITY AND THE WAYS AND MEANS BY WHICH I AM PERCEIVED BY A MISOGYNISTIC AND OPPRESSIVE CULTURE SOMEHOW AFFECT OR INFLUENCE HOW I PORTRAY OR EXPRESS MYSELF IN CASUAL CONVERSATION.
COCK.

animalstalkinginallcaps:

DARREN, I’M NOT TRYING TO BE A BITCH OR ANYTHING BUT I THINK IT’S PRETTY CLEAR THAT AMY DOESN’T WANT TO TALK TO YOU ANYMORE AND THAT YOUR PRESENCE IS UPSETTING HER.

NOT THAT BEING PERCEIVED AS A BITCH IS IN ANY WAY BOTHERSOME TO ME BECAUSE I’M NOT LABORING UNDER THE DELUSION THAT YOUR OPINION OF MY OVERALL PERSONALITY AND THE WAYS AND MEANS BY WHICH I AM PERCEIVED BY A MISOGYNISTIC AND OPPRESSIVE CULTURE SOMEHOW AFFECT OR INFLUENCE HOW I PORTRAY OR EXPRESS MYSELF IN CASUAL CONVERSATION.

COCK.

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How to Be like Me

  • Be Depressed.  Not just depressed-lower-case-d, but Depressed-Upper-Case-D.  Be so Depressed that you finally go to the counseling center to be sure that you don’t act on all those suicide ideations (fancy words for “KILLING MYSELF FANTASIES” I had a lot of them.)
  • Don’t do your work because you’re Depressed.  Instead, try sleeping at odd hours and wayyy more than you normally do, partially due to the depression and partially due to your new medication that is supposed to make you not fantasize about razor blades and finding a dealer who can sell me lots of painkillers.  This includes skipping classes.
  • Drink a lot.  Drink more than you should.  Get superbly drunk nearly every time you drink.  Be slightly insulting when you’re drunk.  Allow the alcohol to exaggerate your already fluctuating moods.  
  • When you do finally do your work, cram.  Cram cram cram. You know this shit, but at this deep of a level?? Not really.  This is why you’re getting your Ph.D. You have to learn, so fucking cram.
  • Spend hours in lab after spending two weeks not even stepping near it.  I literally mean hours.  Yesterday and today I will have spent over 22 hours in lab.  
  • Make friends slowly due to the Depression and drinking and time in lab.
  • Cry a lot due to loneliness and anxiety.  Ask a lot of nervous questions from those who you hang out with most.
  • Listen to Soulwax in lab and dance when you think no one else is there.
  • Neglect your internet spaces.

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October

This October…

  • I am single.
  • I went on a date with a dude who is three years younger than me.
  • We kissed in my car.
  • I feel skeezy a little??
  • I took a lot of tests / completed a lot of projects.
  • I saw a psychiatrist.
  • I feel good / bad in semi-regular cycles.
  • I am drunk most of the time.
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